Saying Goodbyes. Parting Ways.

5 Aug

I have said my share of goodbyes in my lifetime…

There are different kinds of ‘goodbye.’  There’s the “I’ll see you again soon!”- goodbye that you say to close friends and family whom you will come back to, the “I’ll see you around”-goodbye for acquaintances in an awkward moment of parting whom you might bump into in class or at a party, and then there’s the “… I don’t know if I’ll ever see you again”-goodbye for those who you’ve come into contact with for a short period of time and will be leaving indefinitely.

Before leaving for Japan I said bye to my parents, brother, grandmother, and friends from school and home, knowing that I will see them again when I come home in January. It was a bittersweet goodbye as I looked forward to my adventure abroad, but knew I would miss my friends and family at home. It was a comforting goodbye, though, because I knew they were all anxious and excited for me too.

Today, I had to say goodbye to my Peacocks, my girls, at the last day of camp. All day I tried to avoid thinking about the fact that I will most likely never see these girls again. They are such an amazing group of girls, and I feel so blessed to have met them all. But for these past two weeks they have been a shining light in my life. They were what got me to up and going so early on these summer mornings, and what kept me awake and running through the day. Their positive energy was contagious. I will really miss going to work and seeing them. I feel like I really made a connection with some of them. At the end of the day, after our closing ceremonies when they were all heading toward the buses a bunch of the girls held on to me not wanting to let go. I was so touched. I gave them all my e-mail address so hopefully we can keep in touch, but that’s just being optimistic. Realistically, a lot of them probably don’t even have e-mail accounts, but I’ll keep holding on to my bit of hope. I will get a new set of girls come this Monday for the next session of camp that I will have to say goodbye to in two weeks again, and it will probably be just as sad. But it’s a fact of life. People come and go in and out of each other’s lives. It’s not pointless or meaningless, these interactions. They have impacted me. And, who knows? Maybe I’ve touched their life too somehow. That’s all I can really hope for.

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